The joy of being tolerated

Haven't had many experiences that are as hurtful as thinking you're loved only to find out that your tolerated for your usefulness, rough but necessary lesson to learn. Its often the case in business but in personal life its a bummer. I blame books like 48 laws of power etc. for ushering in this age off...hell I don't even know what to call it. Then again before entheogens raised my awareness and conscience perhaps I was guilty of the same. the conditions that bring about lack martially speaking are all it takes to destroy many strong holds from within. lack, distrust, envy...etc. are the opposition on favorable conditions of...hell just hurting at the moment. Perhaps this understanding is necessary for growth and the next phase of life. A healthy way to view such social phenomenon is that its about The Tribe over The Self, or am just....idk.