The enemies

fear, guilt,shame,terror, humiliation, doubt, all dragons that a hero has slained.

The joy of being tolerated

Haven't had many experiences that are as hurtful as thinking you're loved only to find out that your tolerated for your usefulness, rough but necessary lesson to learn. Its often the case in business but in personal life its a bummer. I blame books like 48 laws of power etc. for ushering in this age off...hell I don't even know what to call it. Then again before entheogens raised my awareness and conscience perhaps I was guilty of the same. the conditions that bring about lack martially speaking are all it takes to destroy many strong holds from within. lack, distrust, envy...etc. are the opposition on favorable conditions of...hell just hurting at the moment. Perhaps this understanding is necessary for growth and the next phase of life. A healthy way to view such social phenomenon is that its about The Tribe over The Self, or am just....idk.

Los's Scene

Feeling paralyzed, like Im caught in a mental tractor beam, can feel it though it's unseen, or is it fear of another becoming, growth, ending,new beginning or transmutation of an illusionary scene? Not quite right but is it as right as I've ever seen? The dead giveaway is seeing the sceam. Is it a facade or real? Answer me scene! But, its the actors that speak, it's left up to me to find the meaning which is always based on me. Thus I co create the scene. Perhaps its simply empty, if the same goes for me then it's move along because there's nothing to see or paint the picture of what you would like it to be. Ahhh but is mine the only brush to touch the canvas or are there others who add to the scenery? Could it be that it's all simply a projection of me. "To be or not to be."